stopping this blog

hi all, i have decided two blogs are too much. i started this one for my son and stories about him, but i have incorporated that into my other blog.

rnmom.spaces.live.com

i have turned off comments here because i was getting spam kind of stuff. please come see me at the other site!

things to know about me

1) i'm really short (4'11")
2) for my weight i should be taller, but i've always been curvy
3) i'm a wife, a mom, and a nurse, i mostly identify with being a mom
4) i'm a cancer (july)
5) i have a good husband who can be a little tough to live with, but he loves me no matter what, and he has a great butt
6) i have two neices and nephew i love like my own, my nephew has cystic fibrosis
7) i hate to clean my house so much so that i sometimes take a few days off, and then deal with the consequences
8) my son is adorable-just look through the photo album, i want another baby
9) he is the best thing that ever happened to me, next to my husband
10) i have known my husband since he was 12 and i was 13
11) because he was my brothers best friend (still is)
12) i should not be blogging right now
13) i'm obsessed with NoBloPoMo
14) i feel a real sense of accomplishment if i get people to leave me comments (you like me you really like me!)
15) i think i have one regular reader named jean, you can find her under places i like
16) i have a few close friends, a lot of people i'm friendly with
17) i honor my commitments, if i say i'll do it i will, if i don't really commit then i don't want to
18) i'm very honest-except if i have to hurt someones feelings, if i have to i do it kindly
19) i know i can do anything i decide to do-like nursing school
20) for some reason i can't decide to take better care of myself

ok must do that housework, get ready for work thing now! see you all tomorrow!
12:26 PM

i have a neice who is three, she has huge blue eyes and long light brown hair with blond streaks. she is one of the funniest people i know!

my brother (the king of inappropriate) taught her to say; "farts are awesome" she says it
'farts rawe-some" another personal favorite is ella are you on crack? she looks at you and says "no, i'm not on crrrrack" it has become a running joke within my family. a few days ago i was at my moms with Will, my sister in law came to visit with my niece and nephew, and with all three kids running around we began to smell something unpleasent and started checking diapers, both boys were clean so my SIL asked my neice if she farted....she said
"no, but i farted on the way here" completely serious.

earlier this week i was watching her and my nephew and son and her house, i wanted to clean up the mess the boys made eating lunch so i asked her, ella where does mommy keep the broom.
she looked at me very seriously spread her arms out in an i don't know motion and said "
i think we are all out of brooms.."

i had taken her to preschool earlier in the day and picked her up. after we had been home a while i noticed she only had one shoe on, i asked her where the other one was and after thinking about for a moment she said " i think we left it at school" i had to think about it but no she had it when i picked her up, right? i mean i would have noticed if she had only one shoe on...i think! after a minute i decided she did have two shoes on, but i had been chasing a walker and a crawler on very little sleep all day...

speaking of preschool, i got lost on the way and turned around cause i thought i had gone too far, she spoke up from the back-what did we forget? i explained i went the wrong way and she told me that her school was the other way, so i turned back around but called my mom who has done this before to check, i explained all this and my mom said alison, your listening to a three year old!

never a dull moment when ella is around!

IT'S A MOMS LIFE

where are my comments? i love jean (myother blog-here haunting silence) but i wonder if i am writing to an audience of one....
i'm making an effort NoBloPoMo and everything...come on people comment dependent here!!!!


and for your personal amusement (and maybe a little sympathy for me)
here is my recap of yesterday:

5am- wake up because the boy is awake and yelling mama! mama!
feed him, change him give him milk let him play
7am-put the boy down for his nap, go lay down myself ( i have to work tonight)
9am-get up throw clothes on myself and boy, grab diaper bag, go pick up my mom for dentists appt
10-11am chase son around waiting room saying "no no will" or "mama said no" way too many times to count
11-1:30pm-drive mom home, do her laundry, put new sheets on her bed, make lunch and clean it up
1:30-2pm drive home to meet sister who is watching will, baby falls asleep in car
2:00-2:45 run around like idiot, cleaning up house, packing diaper bag, getting ready for work, my mother in law is picking up will here in about an hour so can't let her see house trashed, sister had started cleaning before i got here (LOVE HER)
2:45-3:15 get too work late(noone cares)
3:15-11:30pm work
11:30pm-1:30 am drive home deciding to grocery shop now without the boy
1:30-3:00 am pick up house, put away groceries, start tomorrows supper in crock pot, change laundry, put dog out, slide into bed
3:15am stupid toy in babies room starts going off on its own, loudly playing music waking me up through the baby moniter, stops on its own, baby still sleeping, go back to sleep
3:30am stupid toy goes off again in babies room,waking me up again, this time he is stirring, i must make it stop, run and and grab the toy, run out again, baby wakes up starts screaming cause he saw me...
go back in pick him up, and he is soaked, bring him downstairs to change him...
3:30-4:30 am change baby into new diaper and dry jammies, give him milk, watch sesame st on tape until he appears sleepy again, put him back to bed, slide back in bed myself
7am-wake up because the boy is screaming mama! mama! that was a refreshing 2 1/2 hours!

and i want another kid!

blogging at work

today has been crazy so i am blogging at work in the few minutes of quite time i have...so i don't mess up my commitment to blog every day for a month on day 2!

so ever chase your toddler around in a dentists waiting room for an hour? i'm sure many of you have...but still, not fun! he learned very quickly how to operate the water cooler...he tried to pull over the plants, he banged on the glass door dividing the waiting room from the office, he threw magazines on the floor(only once), spilled cheerios, it was a blast!!!

my mom had surgery two days ago on her foot so she couldn't drive herself to this appt. but to be honest most of what i wrote happened in the first fifteen minutes, then he settled down and chatted with everyone in the waiting room who missed all the fun stuff above and told me what a good boy i have!!!

so have to go but tomorrow...the halloween post!

first haircut

i made an appointment with my hair lady for 11am yesterday, october 31st. i wanted to take another set of formal pictures first, but i never got around to it, i woke up with a feeling of dread, but i layed out our clothes so we could get showered and bathed....and then i cancelled the appointment. i didn't do it, i didn't want to in the first place, there are people in our family (like daddy) who really want his haircut, and there are some who think i'm nuts for not cutting it because it is a not neat...it's a messy mop of curls. there are plenty of others who don't feel a need for a haircut like me. it's not in his eyes, it's long on the back and sides, but curls up to the top of his neck anyway.

why didn't i do it? or rather why don't i want to do it?

he is my baby! i don't feel the need to rush him into boyhood and then manhood. i knew it wasn't the right thing to do when i woke up with a knot in my stomach. does that make me a bad mother for trying to hold onto babyhood a little longer? i don't know and i don't care...so at 18 months still no haircut, and to be honest as long as it is not in his eyes, i don't care if people constantly mistake him for a girl, i'm not ready!

NaBloPoMo---and i got the job!

i found out a few days ago, but chose to post about my nephew first since it was his birthday ( i love that kid!) it's a long post but worth reading!

so this new position on the same floor will start on 12/10, i'm a little nervous but feeling good about it. we have had lots of manadation lately, and that won't be a problem for me anymore, i don't love 7am, but i know i can do it, i have before, and i won't be so tired all the time cause i will be home by 8pm! i will see my husband every night! so mostly excited i guess.

also i have decided to participate in NaBloPoMo. you can go to this link http://www.fussy.org/nablopomo.html to find out more, but essentially i will blog everyday in the month of november...it sounds like a fun challange! so starting tomorrow stop by and check out what i come up with...be sure to leave me lots of comments to encourage me!

happy birthday to my favorite nephew!

today was my nephews 1st birthday party. he is an amazing little boy and i want to share his story with my friends out there in blogging land.

Weston was born last october 2005. my brother and sister in law already had one child a little girl named ella, and they knew they were ready for another baby. they got pregnant, went for the ultrasound, and were unable to find out what they were going to have cause he didn't cooperate.

we all waited at the hospital for him to make his arrival, as we do for all new babies in my family, he was finally born around 9pm, but once he was here it was apparent something was wrong. he was taking a while to get pink and his abdomen was very distended. there was a slew of xrays, we heard they were watching gas bubbles in his stomach and intestines to see if they moved all the way through his bowel. they started talking about moving him to a larger childrens hospital, and they did at 1 am. i was with my mom and sister in law in the delivery room when they brought him in to say goodbye, they had him in a "moon box" a clear box as long as a gurney with lots of equipment on it beeping and flashing.

he ended up having his first surgery at 9 hours old, my brother at the pediatric hospital, my sister in law at the hospital she gave birth in. he came out of surgery with a colostomy and feeding tube in his abdomen.

for the next few months he lived in the hospital, had several surgies, and hovered around his birth weight, he was becoming a failure to thrive, he wasn't growing, it wasn't until he was 4 months old that he was diagnosed with cystic fibrosis, and lactose intolerance. they started him on enzymes, changed his formula and watched him blossom.

he is now a little heavier than my son(and six months younger) he is starting to crawl and pull up on things, he has a few words, in other words developing normally. he still has a feeding tube but his colostomy was reversed months ago.

he is not out of the woods, cystic fibrosis is a disease that will take it's toll on him over time. it causes all bodily secretions to be thickened, so mucus and lung secretions, digestive secretions, and so on and so forth. people with cf end up needing organ transplants, and the average life expectancy is 30, with people living much longer or much less.

today was a day to be greatful for what we have, a baby who is not currently in the hospital ( to be honest i lost track of how many admissions, but the last one was two weeks ago)who is sweet and smiley and a chunky little love bug. we don't know how hard this disease will be for him, but to be honest i try not to think about it because it is just disturbing.

we do lots of fundraising as a family, the cf walks, whiffle ball tournaments, bike races, whatever, because that is what my brother and sister in law need to do. just to throw this out there you can purchase cf greeting cards for the holidays as well as other great gifts here http://www.cff.org/GetInvolved/ShopTheMarketplace/
and here
https://www.cff.org/GetInvolved/LimitedCollectibles/limited_collectibles.cfm
they also have those rubber bracelets everyone wears , it's a deep blue, i wear mine everyday.

so happy birthday weston! we love you!

car seat safety-check this out!

just saw this post over at the constant gardners corner of the net, if you have children under 30 lbs, or are close too small children take a look:



http://growingspuds.blogspot.com/2006/10/first-safety-moment.html

adventures in genetic screening part I

aka whatever is wrong with you people isn't genetic....

so yesterday was genetic screening day, my mother had called the office and added an appt for my little brother at the same time. ( by little i mean 25, the kid is at least six feet) anyway he works in construction and had forgotten about the appt, so did not bring his car to the job site. i had to pick him up, pick up my husband at home and then go to hospital for the appt. William didn't get his nap cause all this was happening when he should have been napping. after about two hours of driving around following school buses that kept stopping and blocking the road off we finally get there, we have to go to one building to check in then back outside and across a parking lot to another building for the appt.

we go to check in and an older woman at the desk says " i have to check in all of you" we tell her not the baby but the three adults we have an appt next door...she says well let me just call over there and make sure i have to check in all of you...we need to be there in like 5 mins so i'm ready to jump her.. but i behave myself while she calls and gets told, yes all of us... so she pawns off my brother on one of her coworkers and takes forever to check in me and my husband..

while waiting to check in i have to use the bathroom...so i walk in to find a woman standing there looking at me funny at the sink, i say hi and turn to walk to the stalls to find there are no stalls its only a one person bathroom! she must not have locked the door! so she washes her hands and is acting funny and going kind of slow, then she says oh i know what i forgot to do...and walks back over to the toilet and flushes it, then walks to the door so i think she is leaving....but she doesn't leave...she sort of hangs near the door adjusting her clothes...while i watch her....cause i'm waiting for her to leave...... so i can lock the door and pee already....she finally leaves and i use the bathroom and get out there.... in retrospect as i type this since it is the first time i have rethought the whole thing...i pretty much stormed in there and threw her out. i was really tired and in a big hurry yesterday and it was one of those uncomfortable situations that you're just not sure how to behave in..so i am right now laughing hysterically and crying a little as i write this...i'm such a jerk! that poor woman!

anyway back to the screening...we go over to the other building and find the office is tiny, as in there is no waiting room. Me, my husband, my brother, and my baby in the umbrella stroller literally take up all the available floor space, they tell us the will put us in the big room cause there are so many of us, and i am a little relieved cause i was feeling clausterphobic...yeah the big room is not so big, actually a little smaller then the first room we were in. i fold up the stroller and shove it in the corner, we close the door and my son starts playing with the disgusting toys from the 1970's that are all broken. yeah i'm a good mom...

my brother doesn't love small places or crowds and i was already feeling like the walls might be coming in.. the lady comes in and talks for waaayyyyyy toooo looonnnnggggg about stuff we already know, leaves the room like 4 or 5 times, my toddler who did not get his nap is getting antsy...we are trying to keep him happy, we are getting giddy ourselves, the lady keeps explaining stuff we already know....everyone is tired and hungry...

a few highlights from the conversation:

lady: so why are you here today directed to my brother-
adam-so my mother can sleep at night (he says this absolutely deadpan cause he's not trying to be funny) then backtracking-i mean i know it's important and i need to know, but this isn't important to me right now, i'm not having kids yet....

after the lady goes through a very long but not at all in depth explanation of genetics adam says "yeah- i learned that in high school " rude but funny if you know adam...and mild for what i know he wanted to say...

my son trying to play with the lady's usb drive which is around her neck on a lanyard cause he thinks it's a car...

my son showing the lady his belly button....and wanting to see hers....so we pulled him away

in between all of this she just keeps giving us looks like i can't believe these people....

so after the three ring circus in a too small too hot room with the toddler getting increasingly. tired and cranky, and the adults getting a little silly in a meeting that went on far too long...we went back to the building we started in on the other side of the same waiting area for the lab work we came in for in the first place...william fell down and started wailing-he wasn't hurt more tired, so i had my blood drawn from my right arm while he wimpered in my left arm...

and then we finally got to drop off adam and go home...

we should have the results in a week or two, stay tuned for results...
8:59 AM

happy thoughts-yes i'm still alive

here are some of my recent happy thoughts:

!) dave and i have been doing some talking and in a few months we will start trying for baby #2!!!!

2) the house is completely sided and today before i went to work we hung the new shutters and painted the front door to match-i will post a pic tomorrow!

3) we go for genetic screening this week to deal with the cystic fibrosis thing, this is good because at least it will be over and done with-i am not expecting my husband to be a carrier even if i am as he is european.

4) just when i was getting upset about work and all the mandation that has been going on a new position was created, it is 24 hours same as what i am working now, but only two twelve hour shifts instead of 3 eight hour, which would end up being only two weekend days a month, and 7a-7p so i would always be home at a decent hour! no more grocery shopping at one am, or scrambling for someone to take will at 5 am if i get stuck at work overnight! 5 days off a week!! and it looks like noone above me in seniority will want it so there is a good chance i might get it, cross your fingers for me!

5)my son is the most adorable child on the planet! he is following directions, speaking in two word sentences, wanting me to read him stories, learning tons of new words everyday, feeding himself with a spoon, and he is officially 1 and 1/2!!! 18 months old a few days ago.

6) i started x-mas shopping for will and have bought him some pretty cool toys and books so far! i'll do a post about that later!

and now i'm off to bed (it's 2 am)

the eat like (you have) a toddler diet

i went to work the other day and realized i had not had anything to eat. i did have two cups of coffee, i did feed my son two meals, but here it was 4pm, and i was empty.

this does happen on occasion, and it got me thinking, so here are the rules for this diet:
1) completely forget to feed yourself while making nutritious meals for your toddler
(that he will not eat so you end up feeding him milk and crackers...again)

2)make yourself a nice hot cup of coffee or tea, take a sip if you get the chance, set down cup to attend to toddlers needs, when you remember you made it and go back it is cold and not worth drinking ( see no calories!)

3) make yourself a bowl of soup for lunch after attempting to feed toddler (who threw his food and cried to get out of highchair) as soon as you sit down to eat it, toddler crawls into your lap and eats half the bowl. -half of a can of campbells goldfish and meatball soup is about 100 calories but you didn't get any meatballs cause your toddler needs the meat more than you do!

4) ignore the fact that your stomach is growling because you work second shift and get to bed around 1-2 am, your toddler is convinced you only need about 4 hrs of sleep and gets up 5-6 am. so you are too groggy to care that you are hungry, you just want a cup of coffee and said toddler to go down for morning nap-again no calories-remember rule 2-you're not gonna drink that coffee anyway!

5)decide you are still hungry after your oh-so-filling lunch of half a bowl of soup, make a bag of popcorn that you and your toddler munch on. (it's only light popcorn people-that doesn't count as food!)

6)when you are at work and hungry (again) be thankful you work in a hospital and grab cereal or peanut butter and crackers and water to inhale while you try to do your job...cracker for me-meds for mrs. jones, craker for me-call doctor about mr. smith, eat crackers while talking face to face with the doctor who reaches over and grabs one too(hmmm..wonder if they have a toddler?)

7) when you have a toddler free moment(nap time) eat something that does not qualify as healthy or nutritious because it is fast and requires no prep...a can of olives, chips, goldfish crackers, popcorn, ice cream etc. avoiding the fresh fruit (you bought it for the toddler), or anything that requires more than a quick zap in the microwave.

when you get on a scale and are not happy with the number-180-remember that you eat crap so why wouldn't you be chubby!?

when (attempting) to cuddle with a toddler

i used to have a baby boy, i would sit and hold him and stare into his eyes and study his features, i played with his baby soft hair, smelled his baby smell, studied each detail....

and it's a damn good thing i did, cause that is so over!

the other night while i was rocking my baby before bed, he took my hand and rubbed it across his cheek, so i did for a while, then he looked up at me in the dim bedroom night light. i looked at his beautiful little face for a few seconds, and then out of nowwhere...he stuck his fingers up my nose!

i started laughing, he started chortling, we both got a little hysterical, i laid him down in his crib and kissed him goodnight, since the moment was definately gone!

such a boy

i am watching my son play next to me on the coach, he is surrounded by 7 matchbox cars( five more than he can hold) as he makes rummm-rummm noises. and i can't help but wonder, how did i get such a boy? i am sure i am not the only mom who has had this thought, i know it is not original, but i am so struck by it that i immediately started writing.

i knew months before my ultrasound that he was a boy, i had a dream i was driving and looked into the back seat at a little boy who looked just like my husband, and i was right, i have a little boy who looks just like my husband. he was supposed to be a girl, in my family we always have girls first and even my husband has an older sister, but i knew...this one was a boy, breaking the generations old birth order, girl-boy-boy.

i watch this little boy run and climb and bruise himself almost daily, he climbs the chairs and the coffee table, he wrestles and rides the dog, i have turned into the kind of mom who wrestles and runs around the house playing i'm gonna get that bum....he loves to throw, anything and everything, while driving i hear ohhhhh caahhrrr from the back seat while he points out every moving vehicle we drive by...

yesterday he brought me a toy to fix so i pulled out a screwdriver to change the batteries, i was doing this on the island so he could not see what i was doing. he went to the cupboard pulled out a different screwdriver turned another toy upside down and started to try to remove the screws. (we have since moved the tools)

even his hugs are rough, he climbs me like a jungle gym, grabs my hair with both hands and pulls me in as hard as he can.....i love it.

he is always surprising me, pushing me to be a different mom then i thought i would be because if he likes bugs(and he does) i will show them too him, if he wants to wrestle i will, if he wants to push cars and trucks around i will, i will sit on my front steps with my hair a mess and in pajamas so that he can watch the garbage truck or the milk truck. i will buy the pajamas covered in cars...that he is wearing right now....so he can look down and be delighted when he notices.

i am a mom of a BOY.... and i wouldn't have it any other way!

new baby !

hi everyone!! since it has been a while since i posted i figured i'd say hi and give you an update... my sister had her baby Donna Elizabeth on august 30. she was sure she did not want to breastfeed despite my gentle prodding.

so formula it was until day 3....the day she was being discharged at 1pm....when she asked me if she could pump and give formula, i told her she could, went running for the nurse who grabbed the lactation consultant who brought in a pump and we taught her all about pumping in about 45 minutes. my husband ran my pump over the the hospital so she would have one to go home with.

she went home saying just pumping because it would be too wierd to latch the baby on, by the next day we latched the baby on because it would be just as weird as pumping. well my little neice latched right on four days after birth like she had been doing it all along, and now that smart little girl has decided she doesn't really love formula, and she much prefers breastmilk right from the tap thank you very much! my sister seems to have gotten over her wierdness, and is sounding like a seasoned mama, how much she has pumped, what helps all that good stuff...
I am very proud of her!!!

my sis and her husband are both walking around with stars in their eyes saying isn't she cute, isn't she beautiful? they are young(20 and 23) but after seeing them go through labor and delivery i feel like they have a chance. he was so concerned about her and the baby asking everyone in the waiting room questions about labor and delivery when he ran out to give updates.

i have been going over there to help clean, or whatever i can do, yesterday i was there while they were out doing baby paperwork for two hours cleaning, decluttering, chasing will around...
so thats the brief update and here are some pics!

ok i'll try to add pics later because blogger won't me!